Weight loss update

I’ve been eating much less and doing moderate walking, but really there has been less people giving food out here on Lancaster so its been great….I’m taking good advantage of the weight loss opportunity (and plus the bank for some odd reason isn’t letting me charge anymore overdrafts so that helps too.)

I’m down 2 more pounds since last time, which was maybe last week or two weeks ago. So I’m right at 201. I like being a little heavier though….because weight is intimidating….big is intimidating and people usually won’t mess with you if your big and have a commanding type voice. I sound a lot like my Daddy when he’s mad….only I don’t shake like he did.
But I do have a bit of his voice and the weight with it makes me kind-of a bully….or seem like one….even though most men are bigger and stronger and some women are too. I don’t think I want to loose less than 180 though because then I’ll look whimpy. Big and beautiful are in so I might as well sail with it.

Advertisements

Update on weight loss…..

I can feel and see that I’ve lost more weight….maybe 8-10 pounds. I’ve been doing a lot of walking lately. I haven’t been eating a lot either….so getting home late after riding bus to Shabot. I had walked like miles and miles trying to find the synagogue from the bus route first, so I stopped at this one church and a man was so kind as to give me a ride to the synagogue.

Then I get there but they are closed so I went to the mall to talk to people and had this African American group of women pray with me and they told me not to worry. “you can do this…..as God was with Moses so he will be with you.” And I prayed and prayed for hours at Denny’s and they gave me free coffee and I promised the next time I stop in I’ll be sure to order something (because I was totally broke).

But anyway….I’ve gone from a size 3x to a size large (or a size 18). About a size large in pants too. I’m so excited! I haven’t looked this thin since before Hanna was born! So…..14 years ago. So I’m down about 8-10 pounds so right at 200 right now. That’s about 77 pounds all together. I *think* I want to stop at about 180. I look good full figured and I want women to not think you have to be skinny to be beautiful. R. always insisted “you need to get down to what your sapposed to be”….his meaning was “unless you have the body you did when you were 25 I don’t want you”. There’s gotta be more to life than looks because looks fade. My grandma was so beautiful. Even at age 82 she was always happy….always made my day to go see her. I want to be like her. Besides Jesus, she is my hero.

Homelessness and weight loss

I think when all else fails try being homeless for a month and you’ll be suprized how well you feel and how much weight you’ve lost afterwards, that is unless you don’t gorge yourself on all the free food people bring you.

I was scared at first, and when my brother in law and sister came to get me when I was sleeping under a bridge in Ft. Worth, I jumped at the chance to go with them. When I stepped on the scales at my sisters I’d gone from about 247-250 to 224….that’s more than 20 pounds in only 2 weeks. It wasn’t because I was starving because believe me, there are enough generous people in the world even in these last days who help us, and they will be rewarded for it too. I eat better homeless than I ever did at my moms or even by myself or married. I lost weight because I ate moderately and I got a lot more exercise. In addition, you know it works because I’m an older adult….I’m 51.

People say or ask, “but isn’t that dangerous?” Yes and No. There is safety in crowds so you don’t go to some secluded place and don’t get drunk or high so you have all your mental ability there and don’t engage in anything sexual because in some areas aides is 50%….like down town Ft. Worth. I’ve been told more than once to stay away from the men down town because they have no real interest in any of the women down there and most of them change women like they change underwear so if you want to stay alive don’t have sex with them, don’t go anywhere with them. If they want to take a walk say no unless its to some public place and you wont be alone with them.

This last time I was homeless I lost another 20 pounds and went from 228-230 to 208….that was from the summer of 2017 till Feburary of 2017 I came down another 20 lbs. We walk everywhere when homeless….to the store to the restaurant to church to the bus station. Just to the bus station to catch the train is close to a mile. If I were in Ft. Worth and I wanted to go to the library your looking at 2 miles. My favorite coffee shop is about 2 miles so your looking at least five miles a day walking.

People condemn you for not living in a house made out of bricks and wood and cement foundation. But the Indians lived in tent like structures….the ones up north lives in houses made out of ice. People today put us in bondage and insist we must live in dwellings and pay high rent just like them. Outside the AC or heat is free. Once you buy a tent you don’t have to keep paying taxes year after year. All you need is a pick up truck (maybe) or if your really adventurous a backpack with a sleeping bag. Just think of what it was like 100+ years ago….people were not afraid to do these things. People traveled on horse back and didn’t have to pay car insurance and people weren’t suing you for everything….for stepping on their toe. ( I can’t wait to leave this world!) You could go right up to a stream and drink out of the water….like you were a dear or a bear….you could catch salmon out of a river without having to have a fishing license. And many people lived just like the homeless do now, and they didn’t drug them like they are today.
I can’t wait till the world ends!

I’ve found something that really works. I really don’t want to go back to apartment living. Someday I would like to learn to build my own tent like the Indians did and have a fire in the center and want to live in a world that’s free. The world will be owned by God and if people don’t treat each other right then they will be removed or put to death. I’d like to set mine right by a stream and catch Salmon every morning like my Cherokee family (the fishers) used to do (on Grandma’s side).

Well, besides being a cute granny with cute toes and long pretty hair, I’m also in shape. People younger than me like in their 30’s or 40’s can’t keep up, have to sit down, catch their breath, rest, or they don’t want to keep going….they quit. Me? five miles a day is nothing.

In addition, I’ve been off all my diabetic medicine since 2015 and I haven’t dropped dead like the doctors said I would and my family. Every day at my moms shed insist I check my blood sugar. I got tired of checking it. At the doctors after eating a whole hand full of candy they insisted they check my blood sugar. I told them it didn’t need to be checked its elevated because I just ate a bunch of candy corn. They checked it anyway. Then said, “Your diabetic we’re putting you on insulin and one other medicine.” I said, “I told you I just ate a bunch of candy don’t you people listen?” No. they don’t. Everyone now days wants you diabetic and on psyc meds. It’s the truth! They want you to need them. Anyway, I just don’t worry about it, do my walking, eat what I want. Once you loose the weight you can go off most, if not all your diabetic meds.

Try being homeless for two weeks: a sure reduction in weight…guaranteed loss of 20 pounds+…if you apply.

I needed to loose weight anyway and homelessness is the perfect solution if your as desperate as me to loose weight (although that’s not why I became homeless).  I became homeless because I didn’t want to continue to live for things:  money, furniture, cars, relationships with men other than Yeshua ….AND I just wanted to pay off some bills that I couldn’t afford to pay off while paying the high price of rent and utilities in Denton.  So….it’s all advantageous for me as long as I don’t get distracted from the reason I was put in this century and not put on the earth 200 yrs. ago .

Losing weight is another goal that has been on my list of must do goals in order to keep in tip top shape.  When your homeless you eat less….a lot less because there is no tv for one and for two you have to walk a lot if your going to do anything but bum around you’ll be on your feet walking to the library, the shops, the train station, then back to where you eat and sleep…so your looking at 5-10 miles/day without a car.  With a car will be a lot less, of course.

I’ve lost an additional 20+ lbs. (I don’t know for sure until I weigh) and about 2-3 dress sizes and I’ve been homeless at first in my car and now without for going on 2 mos.  I have to loose an additional 35 and I will prob. be at my ideal weight for my age which is about 165 lbs.  I’ve been working on this weight reduction since I had my last baby about 13 years ago….maybe , perhaps, in prep. for my next child….but honestly do I want to put my body through that again?  No.  I’m actually more fond of the idea of adopting.  Women of the Bible I don’t think had as many children as I have.  Usually they had one or two and at the most three because men back then had more than one wife so others could share in the childbearing….I think six is sufficient….so hopefully someday maybe find a man who doesn’t want any or any more or IDK God has someone for me.

Actually to put this in better perspective I’ve gone from a size 2X to a size Large/Med. over the past year and 1/2  That’s about 45 lbs. of weight loss in about 18 mos.  I don’t believe in rapid weight loss….I believe in gradual weight loss.  Starving is not good.  Excessive exercise is not good.  You need a balance and you don’t need to be in a hurry.  People who rush things and go on fad diets end up gaining all the weight back or binging.  My main goal for weight loss is health.  I have a friend who lost all her weight while homeless (she was about 65 overweight)  and her diabetes went away.  Having children at my age *is* possible, but I don’t like the roller coaster ride it puts you on….gain 60…lose 20…..gain another 50….loose 20.  And it’s easier to gain than to loose.  so, no more babies unless God wants…but hey….there are lots of children out there who need loving parents….lonely children who need and want someone like me maybe.

I can do it. You can do it.

The Bible says life and death is in the power of the tongue.  This goes true for everything in your life, including loosing weight and gaining your health back.  Have you ever heard of the quote by Henry Ford, “Whether you think you can or you think you can’t your right.”?  Well that’s true.

A few years ago I was a member of a group that had to do with size acceptance.  It is true that beauty is what’s on the inside, but it was difficult to be around people who had such bad attitudes about taking care of yourself.  I realize that some people have eating disorders and stress over every inch they loose or gain, but that’s not what I’m talking about.  What I’m talking about is people who don’t care if they are dangerously overweight and they don’t care and don’t want to try and change their lifestyle one iota even if it means to save their lives.  One woman even stated that since she knew she would gain the weight back she wasn’t even going to try.

Well, after becoming diabetic myself after years of being 125 lb. overweight I realized I needed to make some changes.  My first change was to leave that group.  My second change was I changed my lifestyle and all I had to do was go to beauty school.  Just being up on my feet doing something all day helped a lot.  I lost 30 lbs.the first few months!

Lately changing my eating habits and controlling my portion sizes has caused me to drop another 20 lbs!  I’ve gained a few back but I’m going to start over with a new attitude and I* will* loose the weight.

“Old habits die slowly” is an old outdated mindset.  To replace old habits here are three steps:

  1. Decide what you want to do and the results you want.  Be specific.
  2. Develop actions that would accomplish what you desire.
  3. Examine your actions to see if you are holding back or not, or if you need to make any changes.

Here are my three steps:

  1. I want to loose my next twenty pounds in about four months.
  2. I will include at least thirty minutes of exercise in my day, every day.  I will use portion control and be careful about the deserts.  I will start walking tomorrow.  I will buy a DVD player for my exercise dvds to go in the living room where I have a little more room to work out.  I will get plenty of sleep so I will be able to do this.  I will buy the food I need to make the portion control recipes in my book.
  3. Actions seem good so I’m good to go!

 

 

Having a little bit of a setback but……

Good morning.  Well, I received the diet program  in the mail and I’m just not motivated enough to stay with it.  I guess its because I don’t like measuring my food .  its a chore.  But its a good program for those who have the will power to measure your food every day.  I guess it could work for some.    But more than anything I think maybe I need to rethink all of this.  Yes, I spent a lot of money on this…..a lesson learned.  But Autumn Calabrese has a good cookbook out:  FIXATE 101 recipes to use with the 21 day fix portion control program.  You can use the recipes in this book to go with your own weight loss lifestyle change program.  I’m not going to measure my food anymore.  Its monotonous and being excessive.

Portion control is a good idea.  It has worked for my Dad and he lost 70 lbs.!  He doesn’t even exercise.  He just eats a small portion- no measuring.

Right now I’m managing to maintain my current weight and keep eating smaller portions.  I’ve got to get back in the groove and get serious again.  I’m still in a size 18 and although my blood sugar has been a little higher in the morning.  Its all because I slacked off and ran out of test strips and sort of lost interest.  Sooooo…….

Will start back my exercise routine in March and continue to do portion control. I don’t think I can keep using the bowls.  Never the less I will get back to using Autum’s cookbook because with each recipe all the measuring is done for you and just have to read and see how much is a serving.  I like the program, just need to modify to be flexible.  And who says you can’t go out to eat while trying to loose weight?  If I focus on small portions like only one trip to the buffet then I’m good to go.  Its going to take me probably a year to loose the weight so I’m not going to go a whole year without eating out is so not enjoying life.  And here is a recent photo of me.  You know, I don’t look so bad for pushing fifty.lol

IMG_20151127_135806.jpg
A recent photo.

Beginning of fall update and thoughts.

Trying to get adjusted to new doctor, new pharmacy, new home after i moved from East Texas back to where im from in Texas. It can be a challenge. My habbits have changed; both what i eat and how much. (Mom likes to control my eating and that helps in an irritating sort of way.).

Nonetheless i have been struggling with getting back into the routine of exercising almost every day and when i do im rewarded with more energy and lower blood sugar levels.

I havent really been trying all that hard to loose weight but i have lost about eight pounds since my move back home. I tnink its because i feel guilty about digging in another persons fridge and/or cubbords. Lol. But i am learning that weight loss takes sacrifice and…..
Im not eating near as much icecream and cheetows and other junk food. So moms guarding me has paid off and im getting back to my exercising.

Its helpful that there is a small gym right here in the apartment complex so now i warm up with a brief walk and do about two-three miles on the stationary bike. Blood sugar is great when i work out hard. Im exercising about an hour twice a week but i need to work out at least three times a week. Thats the next step….upping it to three times a week.